'Concrete Shoes'

Memories like concrete shoes
Hold me in place
Captive as all this hurt burns my flesh from the bone
I am hostage
I can't do anything but wait
Wait for your return
And I wait
Knowing that I don't deserve a second chance
A second glance
I just need you to know that I'm still in love with you
And every second I'm without you I'm a mess
And you inhabit every corner of my mind
Possessing me like always before
You made up everything I am
So in your wake I am nothing
I merely exist until you come back to me
Everything I want to be is far away
And I should have told you just how much I needed you
Maybe you'd still be here today
I guess we always expect there to be more time
I always thought I had more time
To say all the things I needed to say
I never thought you'd take your heart away
Now with every breath I plead
To love you in all the ways I need to love you
To say all the things I never got a chance to say
You're more than a memory
You're everything to me
Sometimes a man has to lose it to know what he can't live without
And I'm holding on to you
Because I can't let go
I'm a slave to this love
Until I close my eyes forever
And yours will be the last name I speak of before I sleep
And your face will be the only one I see once I'm gone.

© Justin Woodall, February 2010