'Don't Believe In Me (When I Can't Even Believe In Myself)'

Without the existence of photographs
Could you even prove I was here?
Lost in memories and paragraphs
And a kiss doesn't last
And you can't hold what was never there
I'm starting to think that I was never meant to find
This path so sheltered by the dark
A hand so cold that I could no longer feel mine
Is it death or something more divine?
Buried alive as I am still breathing
A shot of something to stop this heaving
No, not life as it feels like concrete in my veins
Soured by the shame
A thousand heartbeats silenced
Many left unnamed
Maybe I'll find my way back someday
As the stars find their way back when the day ends
Not all scars will mend
Ripping myself to shreds just to feel something
Maybe a glimpse of the sun as the sky changes from blue to gray
I want to vanish in the night
Maybe it's better that way.

© Justin Woodall, June 2010

'To Find Sincerity In A Smile'

Every time I turn around, it's my face against the ground
Lungs full of soot, aching from the screaming
Calling out to anyone who'll listen
Waiting for the day, when I'm finally swept away
Either up into the sky, free as a bird
Or under the rug where maybe I'll fall asleep
I want so badly to be numb...but I can't help but feel
Even if pain is the only thing awaiting me
The only thing that I find to be real.

© Justin Woodall, June 2010

'Impromptu Breakfast In Space'

Stars soar through my veins
Like intergalactic ecstasy
Lunar love keeping me sane while the Earth drifts far away from me
And within the glory of our cosmic collision
The planets align as we drift further into darkness
Heavenly bliss and wonder grabs hold of us during the intermission
As we watch life and death fuse into one
And in the twilight we find where we belong
The warmth of a kiss showers us with intuition
That our universe emerges underneath the vision of a sacred sun...our protector
We are bathed within the unborn light
Dancing on the constellation where Heaven and Earth meet
And they mingle playfully as we drink in tomorrow
And slowly sweat out yesterday.

© Justin Woodall, June 2010

Music saves my sanity. It captures my soul and embraces my heart. When I am lonely it holds me in the night. I am forever indebted to the lyrics and melodies that accompany
my life. And when I embark on my endless dream I'm sure you will faintly hear me singing you to sleep.

© Justin Woodall, May 2010

'Making A Wish On An Exploding Star'

Nobody likes damaged goods
So grab the duct tape, baby
And let's hit the lights and try and forget
Not every wound is meant to heal, so we just learn to deal
With taking things as they come
I try to take every step without a stumble
But sometimes gravity gets the best of me
I'll continue moving forward, like sun beams toward the Earth
I'll establish the spark and watch your eyes ignite
So I can bathe in the light and find my way back home
A trail of flames makes its way across this room tonight
And I feel the electricity surge from your fingertips
You make me feel like a human lighting rod
Plug me in and we can fight the morning together
Don't let the sun in on our plans
A solar explosing nipping at our heels
We take in, live with, lose, then forget memories that once made us smile
But today we can choose to be reborn
Life means more than just surviving
I'm trying to leave my mark on you...on everything I see
Hope floats on a sea of dreams
And everything is gold until you turn your back on it
We'll walk against the wind and you can teach me to dance
Fall away into the deep and when we awake dawn will kiss our eyes
Nobody has to know about our imperfections as we discard them slowly
Until Only you can see remnants of my failures.

© Justin Woodall, May 2010

'(Survivors) The Ones That Refuse To Die'

Sometimes I feel like somebody stopped the world
Froze the sins of yesterday
To my tongue and out my ears
And I believe there was a train to get us out of here
But someone failed to tell us all
Now I'm stuck between the concrete and the sand
And I can't believe my eyes anymore
I can only rely on my feet
To keep me moving toward tomorrow
And I still can't decide what's best for me
Should I stand and fight...
Or run away quickly like the years gone by?
The shadows make it hard to see your face
Can I remove the hair from you mouth?
So I can taste the sweetness of yesterday
Before everything went to Hell again
Before the missteps swallowed us whole
While your watching her lips, boy...
Her hands are writing the words to kill off your heart
And leave your soul gasping for hope
Take away all of the underlines and prepare to fall
Into the arms of sorrow
Solitude reborn
When will I ever be here again?
I must take every chance I can
Empty all this fear out of my veins
Don't speak unless you mean it
Because your words are like lightning against my skin
Keeping the hair on my arms standing
Like waves about to crash into shore
To take us all under
And maybe for good this time
Take a breath and follow-through
We're all too young to die
A world too optimistic
Our mother
We lie within her eyes
Watching over us until our train passes by once more
Riding into the sunset of our days
Smiling all the way
Back to a day when your arms were the only destination I cared to see
And your lips were my only way home.

© Justin Woodall, April 2010

'A Fire Inside'

Is it showing?
I try to hold it all inside
I feel the fire growing
The inferno shows through my eyes

Scorching my heart from the inside out
Nowhere to hide when the blaze comes from within
The beginning of a defining bout
We'll all take a breathe as the countdown begins

I'll brace myself as the sparks take hold
As the old turns to dust
Cauterize these gaping wounds closed
The sky showers ashes upon us

As smoke fills our lungs and blocks out the sun
Flesh falls to the ground
Can't you feel it all coming undone?
Your ears will bleed from the sound

The flames will consume us all
As a thousand cries erupt in the night
The pyre will grow as the buildings fall
Through the sea of flames I can see the deliverance of twilight

A new world forms
A new face shines through
Within the whirling walls of this firestorm
Reborn in the embers and feeling brand new

The ashes of yesterday will blow away
The pain of the past will fade
But we will never forget the day
That our souls were bathed in the heatwave.

© Justin Woodall, March 2010